Just another day...

Today I went to an interview and ended up getting the job. Which is great, but I have no life. This new job is my life and my off time is going to be reading books and sitting here writing blogs.

I'm upset at the fact that my own love, my own boyfriend doesn't ever call me. So I have decided not to call him until he calls me or until I get my cell phone turned back on. He is my only friend, my best friend that I can talk to and yet, he isn't here. Its killing me inside. But thats who he is and I love him anyway....even though I cry often at night because he doesn't make any effort to make sure i'm okay or whatever..so i'm just going to stop posting on facebook and see if he reaches out to me. It seems i'm the one that has to start the conversation and I don't find it fair. My heart and soul is not complete with out him.

I sometimes just want to disappear and die. However, I think everyone has those thoughts and never act on them. However, i'm seriously considering it.

For now, I must push on...